some thoughts

lacking complete growth, differentiation, or development

The other day we had a critique in my portfolio class for our most recent project. My professor referred to my project as immature, which is the definition you see above. I don't know why, but for some reason the things this particular professor says impact me more so then anyone else I know. I feel like every time he speaks he hits the nail right on the head, and although sometimes it is positive other times it's rather hurtful. And I know that he's right, which is why I haven't been able to get his words out of my mind.

At the beginning of the semester he told me my photos were no longer raw, they were just technically pleasing. So now while trying to balance these two elements, the raw and the technical I think I've gotten confused. My ideas have started clumping together, and I'm just shooting the same thing over and over again.

I don't know what to do.

I really thought I was finally going in the right direction with my work, but now with these words like immature and cliche....I feel like my work no longer belongs to me. The terms he used made my feel like some agnst-y teenage girl, running around writing my sorrows on the wall. Which is only half true, and I really don't want to be seen like that. ANYWAY,

Ideas Driftin Away

"Watch your moving in elliptical pattern Think it's not what you say What you say is way too complicated" 1901- Pheonix

Mar 2010

Self Portrait

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I haven't taken a self portrait since I started school. So this was really a personal challenge. I wanted to take a picture that didn't stand out as a self portrait piece, but just as a beautiful image. Now that I look back I'm second guessing the headphones, on the maturity level....but I still like the image.

I have to do something new

beauty and the moonlight

"She tied you to a kitchen chair. She broke your throne, and she cut your hair"

March 2010

model: Alex

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I went into the shoot wanting to create this feeling of hatred and anger within the photo.

And in the end I really got the opposite. Everything completely changed once I started working with the model, I think he actually became quite vulnerable and unsure once he got in front of the camera. And in that situation you really just need to roll with it, you can't try to turn the shoot into something it's not. In the end the photo may not be what I intended, but it's almost better because of it.

technical things-

Shot with a tethered phase one. The lighting is really simple, just one beauty dish and white seamless.